“Iniisip ko nun, ‘Hindi na talaga ako magpapakasal. Hindi na ako kikiligin ulit.’ Wala na. Wala nang hope. Feeling ko noon, siya na lang mamahalin ko, kahit hindi niya ako mahalin pabalik.”
This is regarding the advice of Angelica to a letter sender in “Paano Ba ‘To? A webisode of TV host Bianca Gonzales.
According to Angelica she was to hard-headed in trying to save the relationship.
“Laging maglalaro yung isip mo, e—na parang, ‘Okey pa kami nun, tapos biglang ganito na lang. Hindi ko dapat siya tinext. Baka nakulitan siya sa akin.’
“Madami tayong iisipin para mabaliw tayo.”
She mentioned that it was normal to experience insecurities and to look dumb.
“Iniisip ko nun, ‘Hindi na talaga ako magpapakasal. Hindi na ako kikiligin ulit.’
“Wala na. Wala nang hope.
“Feeling ko noon, siya na lang mamahalin ko, kahit hindi niya ako mahalin pabalik.”
Eventually, she realized that she had to face reality.
“Huwag mo ipilit sa sarili mo na baka may hope.
“Nag-start ako dun sa acceptance na, wala na. Wala na talaga ‘to.”
Angelica also mentioned that it paved the way for her to forgive, stopped blaming herself, and cast all the anger towards her ex-boyfriend.
The actress did not mention who that ex-boyfriend was, however, her last relationship was with John lloyd Cruz.
At present, she feels that she’s at the stage of laughing at her past experience.
“Alam mo, ang sarap pala maging single. Hindi lahat ng single, malungkot.”
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SPEAKING of John Lloyd Cruz, the actor is a cast of the weekly series “Home Sweetie Home”.
Now that he’s on an idefinite leave, his co-star toni Gonzaga supports him.
As of press time, John Lloyd is still in Europe with rumored girlfriend Ellen Adarna.
Toni Gonzaga portrays the role of John Lloyd’s wife in the said series.
According to the lead actress of “Home Sweetie Home”…..
“Okay naman, so far.
“Hangga’t walang sinasabi ang management, tuluy-tuloy naman ang taping namin.
“Wala din kaming balita kay Romeo [John Lloyd]. Wala ding sinasabi sila about the latest happenings with him and what’s gonna happen with the show. “So far, we’re just taking it one day at a time. Pag may script, may call time, go pa rin kami.”
She said, the stars and staff of “Home Sweetie Home” are just waiting for John Lloyd’s return.
“Oo, show naman niya talaga ito.
“At kung ready na siya, pag na-settle na niya ang personal matters na kailangan asikasuhin o gustong gawin, eventually siguro.”
Toni hopes that John Lloyd fi nds happiness while searching for himself.
“Oo, ano naman tayo, we’re all for everybody’s happiness.
“Kung saan sila masaya, kung ano ang makakapagpaligaya sa puso nila, sinusuportahan naman natin yun.
“Wala namang haharang dun.
“Basta kami, so far, nagte-taping pa rin kami, nagtatrabaho pa rin kami.
"Kung anuman ang maging desisyon ng management, everything works for good, everything happens for a reason.”
Meanwhile, Toni just came back from a European vacation with hubby Paul Soriano, son Seve and sister Alex Gonzaga.
“Parang ano yun, matagal na naming plinano na bakasyon para sa taong ito kasama si Seve.
“Dream talaga namin yun after magone year [old si Seve], sa birthday ni Paul makaalis kami.”
Why was Alex with them?
“Yes, kasama namin si Alex.
“It’s actually Paul’s idea na isama si Alex, kaya masaya, kasi may katulong kami sa pag-aalaga kay Seve.”
“Also, kasama din namin yung brother [ni Paul] and yung mom niya.
“Walang yaya, walang PA, kami lang lahat.
“Normal naman yun sa buhay ng tao, kaya sabi namin, ‘Ayan, maexperience natin kung paano talaga yung nagta-travel na kami lang talaga with the baby.’
“Ang bag ko diyan, backpack, nandiyan lahat ng survival kit para kay Seve.”
It was a two-week vacation trip. “Nagpunta kami sa Rome, sa Florence, sa Paris…
“Masaya ako dahil naka-spend ako ng quality time sa family ko.
“Isang buong taon akong nag-work, bumalik ako sa trabaho nung January.
“Halos twelve days kami dun. Matagal din, sinulit. “Nakapag-recharge, nakapag-spend ng quality time kay Seve.
“Kasi tinapos ko yung pelikula, yung ibang mga commitments, sabi ko, kailangan bumawi kay Seve. So, inalagaan ko siya.”
